the sinner in me
2009 Resolutions
Keep studying
Be a great boyfriend, and a good son
Be more all-rounded
Stop shrinking and start growing again
Be able to answer to myself
My Second Wind
I fear stagnation and lack of progress. I fear never reaching my potential and being average. I fear being forgotten. The past. Yesterday's news. I fear giving up and being passed by, going softly into that good night. I fear letting those I love down, letting myself down. I fear settling, giving in to the "that's just the way it is" mindset. I fear dying without leaving my mark. I fear not feeling these fears anymore and just floating along. These fears feed me, they nourish my drive.
I love my fear.
i see no reason for me to be remedying your incompetence, or trying to cover up the trail of damage you leave behind as a result of your irresponsibility. if you can't even do the minimum that is required from this position that you hold, maybe you shouldn't be here in the first place.
the fallen saint left at 1:29 am
the fallen saint left at 11:11 pm
Thursday, February 14, 2008
to different people who pissed me off
the scoreline isn't my concern. the fact is that you lost, and i've been generous enough to deviate from being honest in my opinion of your standards. it's so difficult to get you to do work for me, which is by your voluntary consent your responsibility, yet you want to come nitpick with me on a trivial issue such as this. get over it please, and wake up your goddamn idea in life.why should i be faulted for respecting your wishes? you told me not to bother with you, and when i take your advice, you come round and say i'm cold and unfriendly. i don't know what it is you want, but i don't care anyway. i owe you nothing from the way you've treated me all this while. if you have nothing to offer me, leave. i'm not wasting my time with courtesy when it comes to you anymore.when something urgent needs to be done, you simply have to put whatever is in front of you aside and get the job done. don't fucking tell me you're busy with this and that. i have projects, tutorials, assignments and jcrc stuff just like you, and i'm still fulfilling my responsibilities. if you slept a little less, worked a little harder, and stopped whining altogether, you'd find yourself with lots of spare time, so shut the fuck up and do your bloody job.and to whoever that has slipped my mind but whom i have issues against, don't make your problem my problem. if you can't find a solution for anything, stop wasting everyone's time trying to study.
Thursday, February 07, 2008
making a stand
i deserve better than the things you put me through.i'm tired of guessing because of your inaptitude at expression.i don't need any of this from you.you can have this heart, because it's no use to me.i'll walk alone.